02:03 am - *yawn* Well obviously I'm here in Buffalo. Move went well, a little delay here and there, got in a day late and such, but over all it was alright. Still unpacking and waiting on Sears to get back to me about a possible job. Am willing to look elsewhere for work if needed too. It will take a little while to get back into the swing of living on my own and supporting myself. Hopefully Shroud can get a job, otherwise he's going back to Connecticut or maybe off to Texas, who knows at this point. With luck he'll get a job and all will go according to plan.
Also, despite being in Buffalo and settling in here I have only delayed my plans. I am still going to Minneapolis, as of this moment nothing has changed with that just the timing. I would have stayed in Hyannis if I could have until I could get out there. I sadly have to wait on someone else as there is no way I could get my own apartment with my credit. As it stands it's looking like May or June for the second part of the move, Tsune has expressed eagerness to get out of Texas again and has said he should be ready by then. The question is will I and Shroud? There are other wildcards in play, but since this is the first real destination I've had on my path of wandering I am going to go for it.
Back to the here and now though. I predict things will go well for me at least, I should be able to get a job soon and start pulling in money again as needed to feed myself and pay my bills. With luck I'll have enough to not only save for the late spring move but to also replace my aging laptop. As for plans, I intend to get to know the furs in the area and hang with those I know. I also intend to go into Canada as soon as Shroud gets his passport mailed to him as he left it behind, may as well take advantage of my close proximity.
I am terrified, but it is also invigorating, It is pushing my normal instincts to back of my mind and allowing my to think with the same clarity that allowed my to realize I needed to move away in the first place. The future is uncertain and will ALWAYS remain so, to imagine any stability to what has yet to come to pass is nothing more than an illusory perception. Having said that things look bright. Current Mood: excited
09:31 pm - moving is stressful... I'm moving tomorrow. I am stressed beyond belief and can't wait for it to be over. Truck is mostly loaded, only a few fiddly bits remain. Will hook car to dolly tomorrow and set out early(6:30am) and stop off in Trumbull, CT 3 hours later before setting off on the rest of the trip to Buffalo. I'm looking at 11 or 12 hours of driving total and I can't say I'm looking forward to it. Would be one thing if it were in my car, but being that I'm driving a truck and a larger than needed one at that, the drive will not be fun. I do wish I could have got a smaller truck, but I got stuck with a 16 foot Budget truck, damn thing is enormous.. It's gonna be fun getting that thing down my street in Buffalo.
01:10 am - Hmm interesting quote. "I adopted the theory of Reincarnation when I was twenty-six. Religion offered nothing to the point. Even work could not give me complete satisfaction. Work is futile if we cannot utilise the experience we collect in one life in the next. When I discovered Reincarnation it was as if I had found a universal plan I realised that there was a chance to work out my ideas. Time was no longer limited. I was no longer a slave to the hands of the clock. Genius is experience. Some seem to think that it is a gift or talent, but it is the fruit of long experience in many lives. Some are older souls than others, and so they know more. The discovery of Reincarnation put my mind at ease. If you preserve a record of this conversation, write it so that it puts men’s minds at ease. I would like to communicate to others the calmness that the long view of life gives to us." ~Henry Ford - 1928 Current Mood: curious
[ ] slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex (duh)
[x] kissed someone of the same sex (again, duh)
[x] had sex
[x] had someone in your room other than family
[x] watched porn
[x] bought porn
[x] tried drugs
TOTAL SO FAR: 9
[x] taken painkillers (legally, but it doesn't ask that..)
[ ] taken someone else's prescription medicine
[x] lied to your parents
[x] lied to a friend
[ ] snuck out of the house
[x] done something illegal
[x] felt hurt
[x] hurt someone
[ ] wished someone to die
[ ] seen someone die
TOTAL SO FAR: 15
[x] missed curfew
[x] stayed out all night
[ ] eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
[x] been to a therapist (years ago, clinical depression)
[x] received a ticket
[ ] been to rehab
[ ] dyed your hair
[x] been in an accident (not car, but slip and fall)
[x] been to a club
[x] been to a bar
TOTAL SO FAR: 22
[x] been to a wild party
[ ] been to a Mardi Gras parade
[x] drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night
[ ] had a spring break in Florida
[x] sniffed anything
[ ] wore black nail polish
[ ] wore arm bands
[ ] wore t-shirts with band names
[x] listened to rap (very rarely)
[ ] owned a 50 Cent CD
TOTAL SO FAR: 26
[ ] dressed gothic
[ ] dressed girly
[ ] dressed punk
[ ] dressed grunge
[x] stole something (many years ago, teenage rebellion I guess)
[ ] been too drunk to remember anything (certainly should have, no memory loss though)
[ ] blacked out
[ ] fainted
[ ] had a crush on a neighbour
TOTAL SO FAR: 27
[x] had a crush on a friend
[x] been to a concert
[x] dry-humped someone; been dry humped (should be two seperate questions, yes to both)
[x] been called a slut (they might be on to something)
[x] called someone a slut (never maliciously)
[x] installed speakers in a car (how does this make me less pure?!)
[x] broken a mirror
[ ] showered at someone of the opposites sex's house (should have same sex option)
[ ] brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush
TOTAL SO FAR: 34
[ ] considered Ludacris your favorite rapper (eww...)
[x] seen an R-rated movie
[x] cruised the mall
[x] skipped school
[x] had surgery (6 times)
[x] had an injury
[ ] gone to court
[ ] walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping
[x] caught something on fire (and it was fun... always played it safe though)
[ ] lied about your age
TOTAL SO FAR: 40
[x] owned/rented an apartment/house (wha?!)
[ ] broke the law in the police's presence
[x] made out with someone who had a BF (with permission!)
[x] got in trouble with the police (prank calls when I was 14 almost landed me in court)
[x] talked to a stranger
[x] hugged a stranger (furcons)
[ ] kissed a stranger
[x] rode in the car with a stranger
[x] been harassed
[x] been verbally harassed
TOTAL SO FAR: 48
[x] met face-to-face with someone you met online
[x] stayed online for 5+ hours straight
[x] talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight
[x] watched TV for 5 hours straight
[x] been to a fair
[ ] been called a bad influence
[ ] drank and drove
[x] prank-called someone (see above)
[x] laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex (too gay for it to have been sexual)
[ ] cheated on a test
TOTAL: 55
If you have 00-10 ... write [I'm a goody-goody] If you have 11-20 ... write [I'm still a goody-goody] If you have 21-30 ... write [I'm average] If you have 31-40 ... write [I'm a bad kid] If you have 41-50 ... write [I'm a very bad influence] If you have 51-60 ... write [I'm a horrible person] If you have 61-70 ... write [I should be in jail] If you have 71-80 ... write [I should be dead] If you have 81-90 ... write [I got a ticket to Hell]
Today I received via one very late UPS truck my new keyboard. I know that most people see the keyboard as the most boring and simple part of their computer, but I disagree. I have always had basic cheap keyboards. They feel mushy and break within a year or two at most. After going through a keyboard in 5 months I decided to do something about it and buy a quality keyboard.
I ended up with the Unicomp Customizer 104/105 USB keyboard. It is a little large and a little pricey, but it is said to worth every penny. It is also not a quiet touch keyboard, so not so appropriate if quiet is important. It is based upon the old legendary IBM Model M mechanical switch keyboard. It used metal springs that buckle at the exact moment that they make contact with the contacts, producing 100% accurate typing and a satisfying click. Upon opening the box and getting it hooked up I noticed that it looks nice. It is black with grey keys that have shiny bits in them. mmm... shiny.. Anyway, looks aren't so important as it is somewhat dated in appearance. It performs every bit as nice as I'd heard. I find myself typing faster on it and more accurately. If this is built to the same high quality that IBM used to make them it should be in use for many years to come, making audible click clack noises and generally making its presence known.
06:51 pm - Odd dream is odd. No real update, that might come later but first i'd rather reconnect one on one with some people first.
Anyway the point of this post. Last night I have a very odd dream, maybe not the weirdest I've ever had but it may be close.
The dream started out video game inspired, more than a touch of Legend of Zelda and maybe a hint of Oblivion. It rapidly evolved away from that upon me entering a cave that turned out to be a house on the inside. Suddenly I find myself here in Hyannis in a house I'd never even noticed before never mind having stepped foot inside. Also inside was my sometimes friend, Matt, but he was armed oddly enough. Suddenly I notice a large commotion from a back room and out of it marches an army unlike any I'd ever seen. Small though it was it seemed to be composed almost entirely of fictional characters, from Darth Vader to Popeye... But the strangest thing about it was that it was being led by a mechanical version of Kaiser Wilheim II of the former German Empire. I got a good look at him but could not think of his name, and there was also talk of a mechanized Heinrich Himmler in their as well. Wilheim was all metal, but somehow his joints still flexed despite there not being any visible means of doing so. His clothes were metal as was his mustache. It was very odd and very surreal, but in the dream world it was deadly serious. I woke up after the dream flashed to the outside showing some of the chaos this weird fictional partially mechanized army was causing.
What the fuck could have inspired this? Current Mood: sore
10:01 pm - This is why I hate Windows... My installation of Windows Vista managed to kill it's own bootloader a little over an hour ago. In that hour I've been trying to fix it as it obviously doesn't boot. Yes an hour. I've been using the Vista install disk. I tried to use the automatic programs but they did not work. I've also tried a long complicated process for rebuilding the bootloader from scratch. It failed half way through...
I can't use a third party loader as they just chain to the Vista loader, leaving me on square one.
The XP loader was easy to repair if it broke, why did MS change it to this complicated POS?
What if I can't fix it?
EDITED March 21 2009: I fixed it. The normal commands did not work for some reason, In the end I had to remove all pieces of the existng bootloader and run some obscure command to try to build a new one. It worked, but was far more work than it should have been. Current Mood: aggravated
09:47 pm - Hmm... I haven't felt like this in awhile. I'm sad, depressed and generally upset and I do not know exactly why.
Perhaps the fact that Tsune is moving back to Texas has hit me hard, perhaps I'm afraid of how next month will go(April is of unbelievable importance for my plans). I'm also worried about when I'll see my wonderful mate, Shroud, again. Not to mention I am worried about him, with his video game dependency and serious depression issues. I hope I can see him this coming week, otherwise I don't know when I'll be able to see him since he'll be unavailable for a couple weeks after the 27th.
I'm also afraid of what certain people I care about think about me, but I really don't want to go into it here, it's not the place for that,
Well I'm off to watch BSG... We'll see how I am after that. Current Mood: depressed
09:51 pm - Dream from last night/Minneapolis I have to share, even if this means nothing to most people on my friend'd list, it was/is significant to me.
As I was going to sleep last night I asked for guidance about what to do in regards to a fur I have a crush on, but am not sure if I am the right fur for him. I didn't get a dream having anything that I can decerne to do with that question. What I did get is almost as interesting though. It is the only dream I recall from last night, therefore I assume it is useful somehow.
I dreamed that I was in the Twin Cities, not just visiting but rather living there. I was in Winail and Vani's apartment visiting them. Nauta had come along too but ran to the store to grab an unspecified item. For some reason he used my car, I can only guess I had been his ride and I did not mind him taking my car. I watched him pull up from the apartment window. I also recall both Sh0ud and Shale's names coming up in conversation, but not the context(might have helped in interpretting the dream, eh?).
I know, it seems odd that I would care at all about such a very mundane dream. After all if I do move to the Cities such an event is quite likely, maybe not with the exact same circumstances, but still likely. What strikes me is that I would have such a mundane dream. None of my dreams relating to the idea of moving have been mundane, they've either been metaphoric or involved people from the Cities in other contexts or were fictionalized fantastical versions of the Cities as they will never exist. This was very real, very believeable and very ordinary.
*shrugs* Perhaps i'm reading too much into things. Current Mood: contemplative
12:11 am - wtf... Well I just watched the new episode of Battlestar Galactica, and all I have to say in reponse is "WHAT THE FRAK"... I'm confused again, and to think I thought I'd figured it out. Current Mood: confused
02:16 pm - About Holiday/Christmas cards this year. I was going to send out a bunch of cards, but finances got in the way of that plan as well as in the way of the holiday season in general.
As a result I am not doing any holiday shopping this year, so do't be offended if you don't get anything from me. I am also only sending cards to as many people as I currently have stamps. The cards will be printed at home and mailed with my dwindling supply of stamps. So again if you don't get a card from me or I don't ask for your address do not be offended, the money just isn't there for that sort of thing this year. Current Mood: disappointed
Well that is sure an interesting result. Seems correct from my perspective, though I'd say I'm still torn rather than focused entirely on one person.. Well alright, I'm am more focused on one than the other. Strange thing though, I don't think it picked up on my answer about the path in the woods leading to a fork in the road. Current Mood: curious
07:55 pm - First day. So much for "easing into things." I had maybe an hour of computer training and then because it is the holiday season and the store was "packed" with customers(yeah right, seemed about as packed as it would be in September normally) they decided I should have on the floor training. This consisted entirely of two things spread out over 4 and a half hours, and several customers I tried to help. Luckily they were all understanding of the fact that I am new there.
With any luck I'll get some actual training tomorrow that has to do with how to perform my job. I should also know my schedule for next week tomorrow as well. It is a bit overwhelming since I have no training in the things I need training in and am not familiar enough with the store or what it carries to be of much help to customers. I work 10-4 both tomorrow and Saturday, so perhaps after those two days I'll be able to form an opinion about the job, but as of yet I don't have one. Current Mood: optimistic
04:28 pm - Well I'm glad that's over with. I finally got myslf a job again. I'm going to be working for Sears here in Hyannis. I go in tomorrow for my first day of training from 10-4 and repeat Friday and Saturday. Next week I don't know yet, but should have Sunday and Monday off with the remainder of the schedule to be determined.
It feels good to have a job again, but there is so much to learn about working in a new place, and of course this is a lovely time of year to start a job in retail. I get the feeling I'm going to have to learn certain things real quick due to the seasonal shoppers.
So hopefully 'll have money coming in soon and will be able to pay down some bills and begin to save up for my hopeful move later next year(feasibility and date to be determined).
06:05 pm - Lose three gain one... Well on the 4th 3 states voted to forbid gay marriage including California whose vote amends the state's constitution to overturn a state Supreme Court ruling allowing them. This is obviously very bad and I wish my gay friends in California the best of luck fighting this and getting their rights back.
Despite this there is a silver lining, at least for the people of Connecticut. The Connecticut Superior Court just affirmed a High court ruling giving gay couples the right to marry in that state, joining my state as the only two in the nation to have legal same sex marriage. I am not sure of the attitudes of the people of Connecticut to this decision or how hard it would be to amened that state's constitution, but I can still hope for the best. Hopefully Connecticut will go the same way as Massachusetts and their Legislature will affirm the basic right of marriage.
It's odd how in this civil rights battle, for that's exactly what it is, that we have three defeats in one day, and then a week later we get one victory to give us hope. Apparently there are numerous rallies planned in the near future in support of gay rights, perhaps I can find a way to attend one myself and take some sort of action in this matter.
11:23 pm - Alright, update. I hadn't posted about my time in Palatine Illinois yet due to various real life things intruding on my online time, and sadly getting in the way fo talking to some people who mean a greta deal to me.
Anyway I had a good time visiting Shale in Palatine, and it was nice to see more of Xander as well. We mostly just hung out and did out own thing spending good quality time together on Friday and Monday. Over the weekend when Xander was home brought with it it's own kind of fun. On Saturday I got to go into Chicago and explore the downtown area. That was quite abit of fun, especially seeing various locations and filming sites form the new Batman movies. Chicago is a wonderful city, but I'd never want to live there I certainly would ove to visit again. My time with Shale was too short, much like my time with Tim back in Minneapolis. I miss those two quite a lot and would love to back over there.
Which reminds me I feel the need to apologize to Tim and Shale in particular for not really being in contact with them since leaving. I've been under a little stress during my free time. I'll be in touch very soon I hope.
In other news I got to go to one day of FurFright, which might seem a waste of time, but it was not. I enjoyed myself immensely even if I didn't get to see everyone and didn't get to hang out with people as long as hoped. It was nice to see Gavin, Lucian, Kazer, Dragoon, Magnus, Bandit, Aegis and others I can't think of right now again. I also was pleased to meet a fur named Shr0ud who I hope to be able to get to know better.
That's all for now. I need to be getting to bed and getting some well needed rest. I have a busy day tomorrow. I'll try to be online and such tomorrow night.
Oh yeah, I'd love a pair of those. Replica WW2 style US Army service shoes built to exact original specifications. Makes me wish I had $110 dollars plus shipping to spare. Hmm.. time for a better job methinks. Current Mood: nostalgic
04:53 pm - Eighteen days out. Alright the trip is planned for all intents and purposes. I'm leaving here on the 24th or 25th and spending the night of the 25th with D'Bandit in Buffalo. I leave there very early in the morning on the 26th(I mean VERY early) and arrive in the suburbs of Chicago 9 hours later to spend a weekend with Shale. I leave there at some point on the following Monday the 29th(not sure what time, depends on a couple factors) and arrive in the Twin Cities area 7 hours later. I will be spending the next two nights on my own, but the days are unsure. That Wednesday the 1st through the 5th I'll be staying with Nauta, and Monday the 6th through Wednesday the 8th I'm with Tim. I do not yet know what's up that night, but I'll figure it out. From there back to Chicago and Shale as long as he desires(or money allows) and then one more night in Buffalo then home.
To all local furs, FurFright is likely a no go for me, as it is so close to when I get home. We'll see if a miracle happens. Current Mood: excited
10:26 pm - Almost there... Almost everything is in place for my trip out to Minneapolis. I just need to confirm things with one certain raccoon, but we've been playing phone/IM tag a little bit. Then talk details with various people. *Shrugs* Oh well, it'll get sorted out.
In other news I think the Tercel has itself a brand new shiny(or not so shiny most likely) exhaust leak. I need to get under there tomorrow and see where it is and what would be involved in repairing it. Hopefully it is not in the front exhaust pipe, that one will be the biggest pain in the but and most expensive part to replace. Fun fun. Current Mood: calm
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